There is a boy. No nothing serious I swear on my entire life and a half. Ever seen friends with benefits? They get together, play tennis (not really), are similar, hang out because they are similar, and eventually fall in love. So I have someone like that....minus the eventual falling in love.
Well that's the part I've been trying to figure out FOR THE PAST FIVE YEARS OF OUR FRIENDSHIP. Luckily enough, despite our growing up, he's always been a constant thing in my life. Maybe I've just been a typical girl person who craves his attention because it makes me feel like a VIP, but strip down his flirty with every girl ego, I'm probably one of the few that know him best. We've even helped each other with relationship problems, he's helped me study(...), and my mom somehow always loved him. Perfecto, si?
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| My sweet 16 was Gatsby themed, can't you tell? |
No. No no no no no.
I hate that he's older than me because obvi like every other guy, he's more immature than a boy in healthy class squirming and hiding in his giggles about those damn puberty documentaries from the 70's. We talk, and can talk for hours, but about what? Er, usually nothing. And about friends with benefits because we watched it together (cliché move girl!!), and it's us.
Another thing is, I think he's great and there are days I want to be like ok so when are you going to date me (but they really only happen when I realize that my single days are a struggle), and then I realize he is not the one. I don't see him being my boyfriend - supporting my decisions, which is #1 on my list besides make me smile and not meeting him on tinder. How can you be with someone who doesn't support you and your goals? YA CAN'T. I'm not saying he really can't, I guess I just don't see it happening with him because at the end of the day, thats what matters most to me.
Here's to figuring out whatever the frig the future holds.
Bottoms up. Capri suns only.
What's your #1 must have in your partner? If they didn't have it, would you still be willing to try?
