Seven months later...

*Taps computer screen* "Is this thing still on?"

After weeks and weeks of contemplating if I should log on to blog, a free morning told me to finally hit publish after a seven month long hibernation. If I'm being honest, 98% of blogging has turned into nonsense. Stepping outside of the blogger world made me realize how 'sterile' it has really become. Only will show content if sponsored...only will collab if you pay $200 for an instagram post or product placement that they simply cannot guarantee. B a l o n y if you ask me.

My last blog post? December 9. My last true blog post? September 24th. I don't even think I could put into one post how much has changed. I don't think I would want to put into one or any blog post how much has really changed because I know once I post this on twitter random ass people from school will be reading this and ultimately judging me because this whole starting to blog again shit ultimately looks like a lame diary. For all you non-bloggers: trust me I was cool on the internet once.

Before September: I was getting ready to transition schools, trying to start fresh and leave a shitty year behind me. I was a super-blogger – I got free cool shit and got paid to write things and yet somehow people totally loved my random cursing and words that made no sense because I would make them up sometimes. I also tried being a fashion blogger once so that was cool too. I loved the blog world and all that it gave to me – friends who totally understood me and all the weird instagram pictures I had to compose and pose for. I had a complete idea of what I wanted to do post graduation because you know it felt like a freaking life time away.

Now? I think I'm exactly where I should be – except right now because I'm writing this in my pajamas. . . I have no clue what type of job I want to have a year from today, and I'm still 20 for another few weeks which completely freaking blows. I got a haircut yesterday which makes me feel more adult like because its short and i'm rocking the middle part trend.

What you've missed (in summary):  Started a new school. Joined a sorority. Got a big. Went to Israel (again). Started an internship. Met a new boy to annoy (he's heard of my crazy blog days, don't worry). Got a little. Slept and netflix'd a lot. Started interning for The Atelier Shop. Started a new job. Now anxiously awaiting 21 (in almost 21 days). 

Every day I battle the fact of wanting to spill out my silly life details but then I sit back and realize who's gonna be bored one day and decide to stalk and then I will ultimately feel a little bit embarrassed in the back of my mind. Then I think about the blogging community and how its really started to shit and how I don't want to feel like I need to blog because I want to make it a business anymore.


Ok ok, so now is probably where I should say that it would be a shock if I decided to blog again in the next seven months. See you never. Bye.