So if you've seen from twitter, I am now single.
You dont have to read this. I am just venting and will probably feel outrageous for posting this by later today and delete it. So consider this maybe your lunch time read? Like a gossip magazine.
I couldn't tell you why I am now single either.
Remember just last week when it was my birthday? or when I went to DC and had the greatest time ever?
I don't get why those three strong words (I.L.Y) have to determine everything about a relationship. You can still be happy knowing you love eachother, although it helps to say it once in a while to.
How do you know when you love someone?
Questions that have been running through my mind all morning.
So besides being a sappy teen (I'm 19. Still a teen. Still immature) and sitting on pinterest and tumblr liking and favoriting and reposting sad quotes and pictures, I am off to run. To clear my mind.
I am thankful for my director at work who understood me enough to let me leave early, because I was not feeling work today. I just wasn't there.
I've been up since 6, trying to hold tears back, and trying to avoid sad songs on my shuffle.
But when they come on sometimes I just cant help but think I'm in a movie and cry and scream and put my music on the loudest volume ever.
(See I'm sometimes funny when I'm sad)
Here's to changing my blog around. Single Rachel is here to stay.
Sorry to be so mopey but I have realized that the blog community is a beautiful thing and I use my blog to express myself.
Shout out to Lauren at Lights in the Sky for letting me call her after I left B's and be hysterical to her. and she listened.
Also shout out to Lauren at Letters and Lipstick for suggesting I eat weird breakfast tacos (whatever that is...ohhh texans...) and for her trying to make me laugh. Also go check out my post today on her blog.
Hope your day is much happier than mine.
Love you all, bunches. I mean it too!
Aww I am so sorry to hear this! Hang in there, you're an amazing person and deserve the best! Let me know if you need anyone to vent to or just anything for that matter. I'm here!
ReplyDeleteHave a fabulous day!! Lots of hugs and smiles coming your way :)
Xoxo,
Christine
So, I'm actually reading this while I eat lunch...awks. I'm so proud of you for trying to get to your mind off of it! Just hang in there. I'm sure it will take time! Always know that I'm here for you though! The blogging community is a wonderful things (: Love you!
ReplyDeleteBoys are so freaking dumb! I'm sorry about your break up, one day you'll find Mr. Just Perfect.
ReplyDeleteThe fact that you're able to open up to us about it is incredible. There are a lot of people who hold in their emotions which never leads to any great results.
ReplyDeleteCry, you deserve to let out your frustrations and sadness. Break-ups are a normal part of growing up. Things happen for a reason and in the end everything will fall into place whether it's meant to be or not. Either way it was an experience, and a lesson all together =]
You have my email and a new friend:) Im always available if you need a (virtual shoulder) to cry on.
Aww, I think we've all gone through this at some point or another. I know you didn't solicit advice but I'm gonna give you some anyways: life sucks right now for you, and it's probably gonna suck tomorrow and the next days. But someday, sooner than you think, I promise it will suck less. You can do it dear. xx
ReplyDeleteAllie // callmesassafras.com
I wish we lived by each other because we would totally do a single girls night out tonight or a girls night in. Although it might not seem that great right now (in fact its not great at all) things you have to look forward to:
ReplyDelete1) not worrying about anything you do in college, because hey, who is going to hold you accountable!?
2) Meeting cute boys at college (aka cute fraternity men....seriously, they are sexxxyyy)
3) doing drastic things like cutting and/or coloring you hair (because lets be honest, we always want to change our hair but are scared to disappoint the bf)
4) GIRLS NIGHTS! Like all the time girls nights. Especially with your new sorority sisters! (you wont even have time to think about boys, unless your actually at a fraternity party in which there are cute boys everywhere).
5) Sassy songs that explain your life is so much better off with out said person (best part of break up is angry music proving your over it ;)
6) The day when you actually realize your totally better off with out said person because lets be honest, his loss . Any guy who doesnt realize what they have is not even worth your time.
Until all these exciting things keep posting via blog world, and all those other things I told you to do via email.
:)))) Keep your head up girl!
I'm so sorry to hear about your break up. My boyfriend (well, ex) and I broke up last week so I completely understand your feelings. If you ever want to talk I'm definitely here!
ReplyDeleteOn another note I nominated you for the Liebster Award! You can check out my most recent blog post for the details. Hope it'll cheer you up a little!
Lindsay
pearls-please.blogspot.com
I know it sounds "parenty" ...but it'll all work out! When I left for college I broke up with my highschool boyfriend, wasn't searching for anyone at all, and now I'm 22, happy, and head over heels in love with my boyfriend of 4 years!
ReplyDeleteIt's all a part of a perfect plan that you just can't see yet :) But it seems like you already know how to stay optimisitic! Go girl.
I'm 19 for a few more days so are emotions are the same age. I think I've matured a lot faster, though, because I have been through so many shitty break ups like that. Not one, Not two, but three breakups like that. Long-term relationships where I am left in the dust without a clue about what direction to go. I'd probably be there right now if my man left me right now, thankfully we have been together almost 3 happy years and I don't see it going wrong any time soon (I hope). I do have one piece of honest advice to give you, though. All the shitty break ups like this are for a reason. Not some reason you will never ever live to see, a real reason you'll realize soon enough. To know what kind of guy you deserve and want, you have to date the crummy ones. You have to date the ones that don't love you as much as you love them, the ones that are too focused on friends, the ones that arn't focused on friends enough, the mama's boys, the bad boys, the druggies, the churchies, you have to date these boys to see what you WANT and NEED in a man. Not all these different types of boys, but you'll see that after a few, you'll know which types to steer clear of. I promise. Trust me. When you get that boy who really has all the qualities you want, and who treats you the way you deserve to be treated you will know that he is the one. And you'll hold on to him. tight. You'll pick your battles, you'll thank him for just being him. But you haven't found this man. Not yet. You have to find the wrong ones, first. Best of luck, love.
ReplyDeleteAmanda Rose
http://sewmuchtosay.blogspot.com
I'm sorry to hear about your break up. I went through one a few months ago and I'm still on the road to recovery. Keep your head up.
ReplyDeleteSo sad for you. I know you'll get through it though. You're a strong and happy girl.
ReplyDeleteThinking about you girl. I'm sorry to hear that you're hurting, and even though it might not seem like it know-- please know that BETTER THINGS are ahead of you! You're an amazing, sweet girl and deserve the absolute best! Keep that pretty head held high!
ReplyDeleteI can totally understand where you are... When I was 18 the love of my life (or so I thought) broke up with me.. Yes it hurt, yes I cried tons. It took a while to get over but about a year later I met the REAL love of my life... Things happen for a reason and this is just a bump in the road.. It will get better!! <3
ReplyDeletenoooooooo!! Rachel I'm so sorry :(
ReplyDeleteBoys are mean. Throw rocks at them.
Oh no, I'm so sorry to hear this! Lean on your friends during this time and know that you WILL get through this, I promise. There's someone much more amazing out there for you! Sending you hugs :)
ReplyDelete-Sharon
The Tiny Heart
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One day you're going to find an amazing guy. A guy who treats you right and can say those three words without a hint of hesitation. Because you deserve that.
ReplyDeleteLovers you.