Seven months later...

*Taps computer screen* "Is this thing still on?"

After weeks and weeks of contemplating if I should log on to blog, a free morning told me to finally hit publish after a seven month long hibernation. If I'm being honest, 98% of blogging has turned into nonsense. Stepping outside of the blogger world made me realize how 'sterile' it has really become. Only will show content if sponsored...only will collab if you pay $200 for an instagram post or product placement that they simply cannot guarantee. B a l o n y if you ask me.

My last blog post? December 9. My last true blog post? September 24th. I don't even think I could put into one post how much has changed. I don't think I would want to put into one or any blog post how much has really changed because I know once I post this on twitter random ass people from school will be reading this and ultimately judging me because this whole starting to blog again shit ultimately looks like a lame diary. For all you non-bloggers: trust me I was cool on the internet once.

Before September: I was getting ready to transition schools, trying to start fresh and leave a shitty year behind me. I was a super-blogger – I got free cool shit and got paid to write things and yet somehow people totally loved my random cursing and words that made no sense because I would make them up sometimes. I also tried being a fashion blogger once so that was cool too. I loved the blog world and all that it gave to me – friends who totally understood me and all the weird instagram pictures I had to compose and pose for. I had a complete idea of what I wanted to do post graduation because you know it felt like a freaking life time away.

Now? I think I'm exactly where I should be – except right now because I'm writing this in my pajamas. . . I have no clue what type of job I want to have a year from today, and I'm still 20 for another few weeks which completely freaking blows. I got a haircut yesterday which makes me feel more adult like because its short and i'm rocking the middle part trend.

What you've missed (in summary):  Started a new school. Joined a sorority. Got a big. Went to Israel (again). Started an internship. Met a new boy to annoy (he's heard of my crazy blog days, don't worry). Got a little. Slept and netflix'd a lot. Started interning for The Atelier Shop. Started a new job. Now anxiously awaiting 21 (in almost 21 days). 

Every day I battle the fact of wanting to spill out my silly life details but then I sit back and realize who's gonna be bored one day and decide to stalk and then I will ultimately feel a little bit embarrassed in the back of my mind. Then I think about the blogging community and how its really started to shit and how I don't want to feel like I need to blog because I want to make it a business anymore.


Ok ok, so now is probably where I should say that it would be a shock if I decided to blog again in the next seven months. See you never. Bye.

cliche gift guide

I arise from the dead is what I want to say, but not so much how I wanted to say it. But here is proof I still exist and very periodically click on over to this space and brush off the cobwebs. The update is a totally different story. For now, since the only thing that seems to be going on in blog world is gift guides (yawn), I decided to join in on the fun. I mean like they say if you can't beat 'em, join 'em.

I won't bore you on what you should be buying your lovely smelling man in your life, or the little brother who's #1 priority is still sports, but more what you should buy for you. Because in my book? You deserve it.

I tend to be the worst at gift giving (whoops – ask anyone close to me) because I tend to just spend my only currency on myself. So take this guide as you will – pin it to your 'wishlist' pinterest board (because yea, we all have those), consider buying a few odds and ends for your mumsies/sisters/cousins/super trendy best friends, and obviously yourself.

P.S: Don't forget to wrap once received and put it under it under the tree! Or Hannukah bush.

– 'Merci' cards. Perfect for sending long lost cousins a trendy thank you to counteract their shitty gift giving. 

– Vogue and Coffee. To fuel the artsy bloggers motivation. Oh and to create a perfect instagram photo

– Scout tee via Sincerely Jules. One step closer to being a famous blogger, she whispers to herself.

– Cashmere Scarf via Zara. Yes, Zara scarves are all the rage.

– Amy Stone print via Design Darling. I could live in Amy's instagram photos for the rest of my life and be fully satisfied. On the reals, everything about her eye for beautiful visuals is something I admire. always.

– Blanket via Lulu & Georgia. Yes. Blankets are everything.

You will not find me in a mall for the next 15 days or so. Comin' for ya, online shopping. As for the blog world? Let's hope I don't go milk-carton missing again anytime soon. Focker out.